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[ Static ]
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[ Dial tone ]
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[ Baby crying ]
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‐What is it?
‐lt's my squadron.
‐Let me do something different with it.
‐Different how?
[ Tattoo gun buzzing ]
You gonna let me tattoo you?
‐[ Laughs ]
‐lt's only fair. This is for life.
‐Yeah? Where would you tattoo me?
‐Here?
‐No way.
No.
‐Here?
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‐Maybe.
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[ Object clatters ]
[ Tape tears ]
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‐How about here?
‐For life?
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‐Well, I mean... I've been drinking.
‐Yeah, I know.
[ Pen clatters ]
It thins the blood.
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[ Laughs ]
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[ Laughs ]
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Mm‐hmm. 12.
‐12 what?
‐12 fucks.
‐[ Laughs ]
Not 11?
‐Nope. ‐Not 13?
‐No. 12 fucks.
12 excellent, excellent fucks.
But, you know what, we spent eight days together.
You've been on leave twice
when you count it all, and that's not full days.
So that's eight days in six months.
‐So what you're saying is we need
a better fuck‐to‐month ratio.
‐I'm just saying, "Get your ass back here more."
You see that? ‐Yeah, I do.
‐Oh, there she is again.
Oh, my God, she's fierce, this one.
‐Yeah, just like her mama.
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‐Brown bear, brown bear, what do you see?
I see a red bird looking at me.
Red bird, red bird, what do you see?
I see a yellow duck looking at me.
Yellow, um...
Yellow duck...
Daddy? ‐Yes, sunshine.
‐Um... ‐Talk to Daddy, baby.
Don't be shy. ‐39 days and I'll be...
What will I be? ‐You'll be home.
‐What are you guys making?
Stew.
‐ls it yummy?
‐Here, baby. ‐What's that?
‐A carrot. It's good for my eyes.
‐That's right, bunny.
‐Okay, sweetheart.
Well, Daddy's gotta go. Tell me you love me.
‐[ Laughs ] No.
‐Denise. Mm.
‐Put your mama back on.
‐Hi. ‐Hey, darlin'.
‐I just want to crawl into this phone.
Even if it's for a few minutes.
‐lt'd be pretty tight in my bunk.
‐[ Laughs ]
We could make it work.
We could snuggle in.
‐Yeah, a month and some change,
and I'll be in our bed before you know it.
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‐[ Sniffles ]
I miss you.
‐I miss you more, darlin'.
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[ Sighs ]
[ Pots clanging ]
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Mm. No. No good.
[ Clanging stops ]
[ Sighs ] Where are you?
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[ Crash ] ‐[ Screams ]
‐Baby! What ‐‐ ‐Mommy!
‐Oh, my God, what did you ‐‐
‐[ Crying ] It hurts! It hurts!
‐Put your feet in there, sweetheart.
Shit.
[ Line ringing ]
[ Telephone rings ]
‐lt hurts. ‐I know it does, baby.
I know it does.
‐911. What's your emergency?
‐My daughter, she's burned.
Her leg...
[ Rocket rumbling ]
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‐They've got me on a time to climb, 70,000 feet, nose‐up,
35,000 feet, Mach 2.4 heading towards a compressor stall.
No payload. Just me and a clean bird.
Follow a Rutowski profile, I'm pulling back 68, 69,
and then push 2,000 past the test point,
have a near‐full stall,
nose down into my dive to the center of the earth
until I got back to my restart altitude.
‐72, huh? ‐72.3.
‐Fuck.
Highest I've been in a F‐15 is 60.
‐Well, this was 5,000 beyond my highest.
‐So how much of a massive hard‐on did you have?
At 72?
‐Hey, watch it with the language.
‐Oh, hey, Denise, don't draw on the walls, honey.
‐Let her me. ‐Denise, come here.
Come here. We don't do that.
‐lf she wants to draw, let her draw.
‐Yeah, we've got coloring books for that.
Come here.
Here.
Color all you want. Use these.
‐I don't ‐‐ I don't like those.
‐I know, but we don't draw on ‐‐ Diane.
What are you doing? Diane.
Sorry.
‐Anywhere you want. ‐Really?
I got tasked domestically flying
just so that I could be home more.
That doesn't make you happy? ‐We're suffocating here.
‐I'm ‐‐ "We're suffocating"? No.
You might be. I'm not. Denise isn't.
‐She is when you try and stifle her and put her into boxes ‐‐
‐I'm not putting her into boxes.
She's drawing on the fucking walls with crayon.
It's not crazy for me to ask her ‐‐
‐You didn't ask her. You ordered her.
‐I'm not dismissing ‐‐ ‐Get out of here.
You should listen to what I have to say.
I'm a good mother.
‐Yeah, like when you had to take her to the emergency room
'cause she pulled a pot off the stove
when you're not watching her.
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‐You and Mommy are gonna like this much better.
And we're right across from the same river where I grew up.
You can start with one chair and see how it goes.
Look, darlin'. Here's Mommy's new tattoo parlor.
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Mm‐hmm.
[ Chuckles ]
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‐Whoa.
It's so big.
‐Pretty cool, huh?
‐Yeah.
‐What do you think? ‐Wow.
‐Where's my room?
‐Right there.
And guess what.
‐What?
‐You can draw all over this.
‐Go ahead.
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‐Want to join her? ‐Yeah.
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‐Can I do it, too? ‐Mm‐hmm.
[ Laughter ]
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[ Tattoo gun buzzing ]
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‐How's it going over there?
‐You know, this is a lot harder than I thought.
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‐Let's see.
Okay, like this.
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Slow and steady.
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Good.
[ Laughs ]
‐Can I see it?
Oh, that's really cool. You design that?
‐Well, the banana is from the Velvet Underground album.
It's my mom's favorite.
‐The Velvet what? ‐Are you serious? The ba‐‐
No? ‐I don't listen to bands.
‐Oh, my God. Okay, you ‐‐
you have to listen to "Some Kind of Love."
It's incredible. ‐All right, I'll listen to it.
‐Oh, my God. My dad finding out. ‐No, you didn't.
‐Yeah. ‐lt's not a spur‐of‐the‐moment.
It's deliberate, Diane.
‐lf I didn't do it, she would've had someone else ‐‐
‐Yeah, okay, so when she wants a fifth of whiskey,
we'll buy her a bottle? ‐That's totally different.
‐lt's the same thing! ‐Wow. He's pissed.
‐You're allowed to put your foot down.
‐lt's her body. ‐Oh, my ‐‐ "It's her body."
It is my body. ‐What do you want?
Me to control her? ‐She's right.
‐No, I want you to protect her. ‐Oh, here comes the best part.
‐She's 15. ‐He's still going.
‐lt's permanent. ‐ "She's 15."
‐You show up just to drop into my bed at night,
you don't get to fucking decide ‐‐
‐Oh, my God, his face, right there.
‐She's a goddamned child.
‐And, apparently, I'm a goddamned child.
Wow. ‐That's crazy.
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[ Rocket rumbling ]
♪♪
‐...here, in New Orleans,
where Captain Hagerty's wife and daughter
are watching this historic moment
from their second‐story home
as he joins the ranks of a very privileged few
who have left their footprints on the lunar surface.
‐Pull the drapes.
‐This is the first of several EVAs.
Right now, Hagerty is testing
the performance of a space suit.
Let's go right back to him now,
transmitting live, directly from his helmet cam.
‐There it is, just out there on the edge of the horizon.
Just starting to rise. Wow.
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As astronauts ‐‐ when we're on Earth ‐‐
I think our heads and our hearts are so often in space
that we ‐‐ we distance ourselves from our own world.
Up here, 250,000 miles away,
just seems closer somehow.
Intimate.
‐lt's incredible.
‐...you can see the rim of the Kepler crater.
I'm heading that direction to retrieve some rock samples...
‐He sounds different on the TV.
‐...impact ejecta extends over 300 kilometers.
As I'm making my...
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‐Mom?
Mom.
Hey, do you want something to eat?
You should eat.
‐lt's okay.
You don't need to stay here with me.
‐I'll let you know when she's gone.
‐This is still pretty new. ‐I understand.
‐We're in progress still.
...at that stage yet.
‐Hey.
She's still sleeping.
‐Oh, well, that's a shame.
Maybe we'll meet next time.
‐Yeah. ‐Yeah, you should look at this.
‐Yeah. ‐Yeah. Are you interested?
‐Yeah. I'd love to see it.
‐So, this the MTV, the Mars Transit Vehicle.
And here is the Habitation Module where they'll all live.
‐They want me to lead training and crew selection.
‐So, you'd go? ‐Well...
‐Well, he'd command the first mission.
‐That's a long way down the road.
Six or seven years, at least.
‐So this is the rocket build facility
where we'll make the core stage and the boosters.
[ Rocket rumbling ]
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‐Sit.
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Did you want something?
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‐[ Laughing ] Fuck you.
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‐Uh‐oh.
Uh‐huh. Oh.
Somebody's been plotting.
[ Both laugh ]
‐Put your hands out. ‐I like it.
‐Yeah?
Ah.
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I got you.
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You're going nowhere.
‐Oh, I don't want to go anywhere.
Ohhh.
‐Oh.
Ready for this, huh?
‐Uh‐oh.
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‐Happy anniversary, space cadet.
‐That's it? ‐Nope.
Wait, wait, wait.
Ha‐ha!
A little something to celebrate.
‐We don't need that.
Hey, I just thought we'd ‐‐ ‐Just a little toast.
We deserve this. It's been 18 years.
‐Diane, no. Come on.
‐lt's just champagne, Tom.
Just one glass. ‐All right, come on.
Let's just do what we were doing.
‐Here's to 18 more.
‐Don't. Knock it off.
‐Don't what?
‐You're not supposed to have alcohol with your meds.
‐Fuck my meds.
Come on, it's just one night. Just one fucking night, please.
‐Okay, um, undo me here. Undo this.
‐I just wanted to have one fucking night!
Just to feel like we used to.
Just tonight! ‐And I just want you to think!
‐You want me to think? Well, happy anniversary.
‐Put it down, Diane. I'm serious.
Diane!
Great. Great!
‐Mom?
‐Oh, Christ.
Will you help me out of this?
This shit?
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[ Rocket rumbling ]
‐Mom? [ Door opens ]
[ Door closes ]
Mom.
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Mom!
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Mom?!
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Mom?!
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Mom!
Stop!
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Mom!
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Mom?!
Mom!
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Mom!
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Mom?!
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Mom!
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Mom! Please!
[ Crying ]
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You know, I could stay. I could stay.
[ Crying ]
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‐I think it's good for you to go back to school.
‐No.
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What about you?
Will you be okay, Dad?
‐I'll be all right.
I'll be all right.
‐I just want to defer a semester.
‐You've been dreaming about New York for such a long time.
It's your plan. You should stay with your plan.
Yeah, you should. You should.
There's nothing for you here.
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Come on, baby.
‐[ Crying ]
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‐[ Chuckles ]
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‐The other way.
‐This way? ‐Yeah.
My painting teacher said it was his favorite.
He says I have an eerie talent.
I think he says that shit to everyone.
‐lt's really cool. Where should I hang it?
‐Hmm.
I don't know, maybe the bathroom.
You can stare at it while you're on the can.
‐Oh, thank you. ‐Yeah.
‐No, I want to hang it in here. ‐No. No, no, no.
I want to make you something much better for in here.
‐lt's beautiful. Thank you.
I have one finale. But you got to close your eyes.
‐Dad, you've already gotten me so much.
‐Close your eyes. Close your eyes.
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You got 'em closed?
‐Yeah.
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‐You can open them.
‐[ Gasps ]
Oh, my God!
Hi.
Oh, my God. Oh.
‐I know you can't take him to New York,
but he'll be here when you come to visit.
‐Oh! He's so beautiful.
‐He's cool. ‐Hi, good boy.
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‐I'm good.
‐No pressure.
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Oh, fuck.
‐Right?
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[ Woman speaking French ]
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‐Denise? Denise!
‐No, her eyes are open and she's not waking up!
‐Denise? Denise?!
‐Please, just get here! Please!
‐Denise, wake up! ‐Denise, wake up.
Please, you have to wake up. ‐Come on!
‐Wake up, please.
‐Please wake up.
‐Denise, Denise, Denise! ‐Wake up!
‐Denise? Hi.
Sara Graham, the Director.
Mr. Hagerty.
‐Tom Hagerty. Pleasure. ‐Nice to meet you.
You can leave her bag here. We'll have to take a look at it.
‐You have to look through my bag?
‐Well, that's our policy.
You can watch if it'd make you feel more comfortable.
Mr. Hagerty, can I have a moment with you, please?
We are going to take care of her.
[ Conversing indistinctly ]
‐How long before she can call out?
‐Approximately two weeks, so don't worry about it.
‐All done.
‐Come on, Graham.
‐We have a very high rate of success.
‐Hey, that's not yours.
Fucking put that down! It's not yours!
‐What the fuck? ‐Hey, um...
‐Stop. ‐I swear to God.
‐lt's not yours. ‐These? Over here?
‐Uh‐huh. Yeah. All of those. All of those books are mine.
‐You have anything in the kitchen?
‐Mnh‐mnh. ‐I'm asking her.
Do you have anything in the kitchen?
‐I have a coffee maker in the kitchen.
That coffee maker is mine.
‐Do you mind?
‐Sorry.
‐You know what, why don't you give us a break,
and just go take a walk for a half an hour.
‐And leave her here?
I want to make sure she doesn't steal anything. Right?
‐I really want you to take a walk.
‐Big man. [ Chuckles ]
‐Hey, hey, hey. Hey, hey! Hey, hey!
Enough. ‐Excuse me? What'd you say?
‐lt's ‐‐ It's fine. It's fine. ‐lt's fine. It's fine.
‐Shut the fuck ‐‐ I will fucking kill you!
‐Hi. ‐Hey.
‐Hi, you.
You brought him. I ‐‐
‐Mm.
Mm. ‐Mm.
‐You look great.
‐Thanks. ‐How do you feel?
‐I feel okay.
‐Good. This guy's been missing you.
‐Hey, mister. You didn't even ‐‐
You didn't even give me a kiss.
‐I just need another week.
We'll push the JPL trip to April,
start landing sims on the 21st.
‐We're already two months behind schedule.
‐I'm just rearranging things.
This won't put us back any further.
‐Bob and I have been talking.
We've put together a contingency plan.
‐What contingency?
‐Your personal life can't keep having
this sort of impact on the training.
‐N‐No. Th‐‐ We were just in a bad stretch. We're fine now.
‐Yeah, well, that's what you said the last time.
And the time before that. ‐Well, this time is different.
‐Well, we need to be prepared in case it isn't.
‐Prepared? Prepared how?
‐Matthew takes over as commander.
That's one possibility.
‐[ Sighs ]
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‐I‐ls everything all right?
‐Hang on. I got to call you back.
Denise?
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Denise?
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What are you doing down here?
‐I missed her.
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‐How many times we got to go through this?
‐I don't know.
‐Come on upstairs.
‐No. I'll be up later.
‐No. You're gonna come up now.
‐What do you want from me?
‐I want you to wake the fuck up.
Come on.
‐No. ‐Come on.
‐No. Let go!
‐I want you to get better.
That's what I want.
‐I know you don't understand.
But this is me feeling better.
Do you ‐‐
Do you ever think about Mom?
‐Of course I do.
‐No, I mean, like, really think about her.
‐All the time.
‐You locked this place up like she was never here.
‐Look, you're gonna come with me.
We don't have to do the whole rehab thing again.
‐She killed herself! ‐We can ‐‐
No, she didn't. ‐She killed herself.
‐No, she was so fucking medicated...
‐I saw it. I was there. ‐...she couldn't think clearly.
‐No, I saw it! I was there.
You can't lock it up.
But, you know, I know why.
I know why you want to lock it up.
‐Okay.
Why?
‐Because you killed her.
You killed her.
‐I‐I did the best that I could.
‐You're killing me, too.
‐No, I'm trying to keep you the fuck alive.
‐Well, it didn't work for her, did it?
And it's not gonna work for me, either.
‐Come here. You, come on.
‐No. Get off me! ‐Come on.
‐No! ‐Denise! D‐‐
No! Fuck.
Is this what you want?
You want to become animals?
You want us like animals? Like animals?!
You just want to destroy us? Huh?!
‐You're really scaring me.
[ Climbing steps ]
‐[ Breathing heavily ]
Denise.
Denise?
[ Breathing shakily ]
[ Cellphone vibrating ]
[ Sighs ]
Answer.
‐Hello, Tom.
We've made a decision.
‐[ Sighs ]
Don't do this.
‐lt's done.
And it's final.
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